What I Really Want??? ~~No.2~~

Yea

The same question keeps bugging all these days

"What I really want???"

and when I talked about it with my mum

I told her probably I'd think like that because of the hormone imbalance a.k.a PMS

I am not having menopause 

I am only 21 for God's sake 

but I am behaviouring like a young lady having early menopause

*A long sigh* 

Don't ask me why

I also have no clue at all of what's going on with me

I just feel IT!

the same feeling I used to have long time ago

I feel scared somehow

Don't know why

When something good came to me,

I feel scared

Yea

I know

Y'll must be thinking

"Hell,she's out of her mind...feel scared of something good?No way"

I would have this kind of "protective reflex" when "something" good comes to me

(anyone who really understands me would understand what I meant by "IT"...I guess there's none so far... except for my mum...cause' i told her heehee)

Always feel like accepting it in the beginning

But choose to reject it at last

And avoid it for-ever!

(I am trained at avoiding though,i am good at that)

  Keep telling myself

why not go have a try?

It's not going to eat me

Just try

My mind just don't work out so well when something like that bugs me

I become restless

Narcissism 

Hmmm...

prob I got this disorder

sometimes

I feel like I am a walker..

 Walker=dead people that walks..

Sounds weird

More to zombies

Nice show by the way..only got six episodes..shame

Okay...

It's 1:53 a.m

I have to go to bed

I like to sleep 

Cause it's the only time the question wont bugs me

*Another long sigh*

Good night/morning

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