HELPLESS-NESS

Sometimes i wonder..

why would someone studying medicine

when that person wants to have a blog

must write something about "medicine"

for me,

blogging is an escape for me

An escape from everyday hectic life

What the blog for if it cant calm your extremely stressful heart and soul??

Studying medicine

Makes me a better person

However,helplessness comes engulf me when I try to help my own family members
especially my dad

I have differential diagnoses

So many till I don't know which one would be the most possible one

I am just helpless

I feel guilty sometimes that I cant help him

Not a thing!!

The only thing I can do is to surf the net,trying to look for answers

And worry

Useless

That's how I feel when problems come to me

Sometimes I just feel that I should be more clever

or smart

or genius

or prepared

I just feel like I am fish inside the big bowl

Seeing the water leaking and isn't able to do anything with it

Just stay there

Waiting to die

Okay...not big bowl
Plastic bag...

Nobody can understand how i feel sometimes

I just feel sad and upset with myself

:(