Criminal Minds

Yoohoo!

I used to like CSI

but now I am more into this show

Criminal Minds

Cause most of the episodes based on serial killer

AHAHA

Don't judge me 

I admit that I am really interested in those serial killers' stories

I have book collections about them too

And I always found them under "General Interest"

Obviously I am not the only one that interest in these kind of stories

I love to read what they are thinking,how they do the killings (sounds disgusting i know),what they feel 

Somehow

I feel that we can't put all the blames on them for being serial killers

Cause' none of them chose to be one when they were born

When we were born

Our minds are as white as a sheets of papers

Pure 

Just like pearls

How we think 

How we grow 

depends on how we are raised

and most of them

they came from abusive families

having unhappy childhood

being picked up at school

being cheated by loved ones

etc

I am sure

if these kind of events happened to any of us when we were tiny

we might have felt the same way that they felt

that's why I like to watch the show and read the books

I want to know how they developed from innocent kids to killers with penetrating looks

Okay.

I was inspired 

And wrote this impulsively

Anyway

Enjoy your weekend!!

Read more good books 

Or watch good movies

Just

stay away from the computers

Tst Tst Tst

Bad for health

What I Really Want??? ~~No.2~~

Yea

The same question keeps bugging all these days

"What I really want???"

and when I talked about it with my mum

I told her probably I'd think like that because of the hormone imbalance a.k.a PMS

I am not having menopause 

I am only 21 for God's sake 

but I am behaviouring like a young lady having early menopause

*A long sigh* 

Don't ask me why

I also have no clue at all of what's going on with me

I just feel IT!

the same feeling I used to have long time ago

I feel scared somehow

Don't know why

When something good came to me,

I feel scared

Yea

I know

Y'll must be thinking

"Hell,she's out of her mind...feel scared of something good?No way"

I would have this kind of "protective reflex" when "something" good comes to me

(anyone who really understands me would understand what I meant by "IT"...I guess there's none so far... except for my mum...cause' i told her heehee)

Always feel like accepting it in the beginning

But choose to reject it at last

And avoid it for-ever!

(I am trained at avoiding though,i am good at that)

  Keep telling myself

why not go have a try?

It's not going to eat me

Just try

My mind just don't work out so well when something like that bugs me

I become restless

Narcissism 

Hmmm...

prob I got this disorder

sometimes

I feel like I am a walker..

 Walker=dead people that walks..

Sounds weird

More to zombies

Nice show by the way..only got six episodes..shame

Okay...

It's 1:53 a.m

I have to go to bed

I like to sleep 

Cause it's the only time the question wont bugs me

*Another long sigh*

Good night/morning

                                                             おやすみなさい

What I Really Want???

~~~I am living in DENIAL~~~

I need time

White roses

~~~~~White rose~~~~

who doesn't love it!

(except for those who are allergic to pollen)

I don't why

and I don't know how long have I been in love with this flower

Most probably since that day I went to this flower shop in Penang to purchase flowers for my mum for Mother's day 2 years ago

That day

my friend brought me to this one nice flower shop

I couldn't remember the name of the shop

but the only thing I can remember is that it's a small shop

At first I can't believe it is a flower shop

because it is really small heehee

However,

once I stepped in and started to choose flowers

I was attracted by this white roses which the owners store in the fridge

(forgive me for the bad quality of the picture)

These pictures were taken on the first day i bought it

And I love when they put lavender,which is another my favourite flower around the white roses

This lets the pure white color of the roses stand out

It smelled so good ~~~~~

I still can remember how I gave it to my mum hahaha

and that's how I know my dad never gave my mum any flowers...

SOOOOOO BADDDD

Unacceptable 

hahahaha

 

Most girls like red roses

Classic red

 Probably I am too boyish already

I usually like something that is different

For me 

white roses represent love 

And whenever I see it

I sure smile

I don't know why

It calms me 

It makes me comfortable 

Good feelings..

I just wish i can sleep on a bed full of it

A bed of roses!!!

Just now my friend reminds me of valentine's day..

I still remember last year valentine's day

I also post a blog entry here.

Suggesting what's good for singles that day

This year

must think of something else hehe

样貌

我想不管是男的还是女的

在现在社会里

先讲究样貌再讲心的

你射一支箭

十个里边就有九个

可能那第十个

就是人人都讲丑的

所以他或她都不敢妄想

不奢望自己的男或女朋友

是帅的还是美的

只要对自己是真心的

那才是最重要

那才是一辈子

我还记得

曾经跟我的女生朋友聊过

其实我们都不喜欢男生一直把"hot girls" 挂在嘴边

不是因为妒忌

而是因为觉得那人很肤浅

好像什么事都只看表面

然后我们做了一个统计

我们发现

现在的couples

十对里头

就有大概七对（大概而已）都是女的美，男的就没怎么样

这可能不代表些什么

但真的很难找到

男的好看，但女的不怎么样

说实在的

以前在槟城读书时(college)

好像真的完全没听到有男生讲过酱的话

真的

来到了吉隆坡读大学

我是有点吓到一开始听到有些男生这样说

也觉得有点厌恶

很奇怪为什么他们就不能收在心里呢

也许他们都悄悄的讲

或着都在心里想

但是我个人觉得这种比讲出来好很多

要知道

不只是男生有自尊

女生也有

只是有时候不说出来而已

心理却静悄悄的滴着血

不是每个女生都是完美，漂亮或身才好的

有些是天生丽质

有些不是

有些是人见人爱

有些不是

有些有着天使的脸孔魔鬼的身材

有些没有

。。。。。。。。

但我觉得平平淡淡

也不错

至少以后找到的

男友或老公

80%--95%是对你真心的

而且最重要---专一

那天也跟妈妈聊了一会儿

妈妈跟我说的一句话很对

"有时候要找男朋友

是因为真的寂寞

但是

有时候宁愿不要找更好

因为现在的男生

真的很难摸清他们在想什么

很难说他们会对着你一辈子“

The Sequel~~~

GREAT

NOW OPRAH IS SHOWING HOW TO ROAST A CHICKEN

ARGHHH!!!!!!!

 

CHICKEN

Since my holiday starts

I've got this strange craving

I seldom have this kind of craving

especially towards 

CHICKEN

 i eat this chicken

 no way!!!!

_________________________________

I eat this :)

YUMMY!!!

Nah~~~ no one cooks for me!!!

prob I watched too much food channel

Put all the blames on channel 703

teehee

Usually

I have craving for shoes,bags,clothes....girls stuffs

But I have craving for chicken several times already in this holiday

Gosh 

And I don't know how many times I had eaten KFC 

Aren't they GORGEOUS???!!!!

I wish I can eat them all

Someone

Please go buy for me!!!!

SAD

HELPLESS-NESS

Sometimes i wonder..

why would someone studying medicine

when that person wants to have a blog

must write something about "medicine"

for me,

blogging is an escape for me

An escape from everyday hectic life

What the blog for if it cant calm your extremely stressful heart and soul??

Studying medicine

Makes me a better person

However,helplessness comes engulf me when I try to help my own family members
especially my dad

I have differential diagnoses

So many till I don't know which one would be the most possible one

I am just helpless

I feel guilty sometimes that I cant help him

Not a thing!!

The only thing I can do is to surf the net,trying to look for answers

And worry

Useless

That's how I feel when problems come to me

Sometimes I just feel that I should be more clever

or smart

or genius

or prepared

I just feel like I am fish inside the big bowl

Seeing the water leaking and isn't able to do anything with it

Just stay there

Waiting to die

Okay...not big bowl
Plastic bag...

Nobody can understand how i feel sometimes

I just feel sad and upset with myself

:(

FACEBOOK

was once a noun

and now

it was amazingly turned into a verb

FACEBOOK-ING

FACEBOOK-ME

LET'S FACEBOOK  

or in short form,FB 

 in just a few months

and who is the magician behind all these???

 Him

Mark Zuckerberg

the co-founder and CEO of FB

He is the one of the"trendsetters" other than Lady Gaga with her revealing clothes and Obama with his "CHANGE"

He set the trend that everyone,

almost..everyone facebook at least 2 hours everyday 

Before that,

there were other social networking site such as Friendster and  Hi-5

 (and i wonder whether they are still functioning well or not because of facebook)

 They have the same purposes

They let you join 

then you can start adding people,from your closest friends to a perfect stranger

in those sites,you can just chat with strangers like nobody's business

you never know him/her

you never see him/her

but you can chat with him/her like he/she is a part of your family

great 

no it isn't

ironically

you can't even talk like this to your family 

but you can talk day and night to this stranger

who might turn out to be a criminal

HA!

He announced that he will shut down D-Facebook on March 15th

Quoted 

"Facebook has gotten out of control and the stress of managing this company has ruined my life. I need to put an end to all the madness"

 This came out from his mouth

some people said that was just a rumour

But i personally don't think so

Cause' it appeared on news

I have a facebook account

but when I heard this news,

I am kinda emotionless

and 

speechless

I am not mad or upset though

Weird

I'm keep thinking what would happen next

What would happen to those people who get addicted to facebook

Like they are already being sucked into the Facebook world for too deep
that they can't live without Facebook

GOSH 

THEN WHAT'S YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY FOR???

and now facebook also start living in my students' lives

they are only in primary school for god's sake

quoted

“I personally don’t think it’s a big deal. And to be honest, I think it’s for the better. Without Facebook, people will have to go outside and make real friends. That’s always a good thing.”

he said this too...

which is 200% true

people shouldn't create such network in the first place

why would you stay in contact with your friends and family via facebook since you have phones or emails?

Personally,

I prefer to see or listen to my loved ones

than just facebook ,as you can only see the faces and pictures

Without facebook,

we can also focus on our favourite tv shows such as Oprah

Happpppeeeee Monday!!!! 

 

缘分

缘分

会是啥？？

会是长怎样的？？

圆的?

平的？

Is something like the wind~~

~~U can't see it but u can feel it~~

可是有时候

你隐隐约约feel到了

但又不敢跟别人说

只怕人家会说你perasan

但不说

收在心里很难受

说了

只怕是一厢情愿

不懂

一直都不懂

喜欢

又不大胆说出来

等到机会失了

才后悔

不明白

为什么以前不让机会

只会拒绝

现在想起直觉得有点笨

全只因为

怕

不想重蹈覆车

但也不想再受伤害

只能选择逃避

我不想~~~

为什么我一直都不懂？？

为什么还要？？

难道不能清醒点吗？？

A WALK TO REMEMBER

Wow,it's been like ages I didn't drop by here and share with you all what's happening recently..

Well,let's not talk about last year,shall we?

It's a brand new refreshing year!

Year 2011

still not getting used to it huh... 

The 2011 marks that we grow up by 1 year and our mental state should get "more mature" or in another word "OLDER"

I used to look up to seniors

but now,it's my turn to become seniors...not that kind of senior citizen

1 more month to go and I shall see what would be happening between me and those adorable (I hope so,teehee) juniors

Blah,blah,blah....

K'

Just drop that dull and dry topic...

Honestly,

There's nothing much to talk about myself

I prefer listen,

listening to other people's stories will make me realise how small the world is and how tiny we are.

We are just living inside our worlds....

Sometimes,

we just have to open to other people

Have you tried that??? 

Haven't tried that before???

Make that into your list of new year resolutions!!

Top of the list please.

  

A WALK TO REMEMBER

Love is always patient and kind. 

It is never jealous. 

Love is never boastful or conceited. 

It is never rude or selfish. 

It does not take offense and is not resentful

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I had watched this movie for like... 6 times??
Still,
I am touched by the story
Touched deep inside my heart
Making me realised that my tear ducts are functioning perfectly
Help me to realise that there are really such lovely yet heart-breaking stories somewhere in the world
We would always put it as "DRAMA-TIC"
But yeah,it's really happening

Quoted from Wikipedia,
"The inspiration for A Walk to Remember was Nicholas Sparks' sister, Danielle Sparks Lewis, who died of cancer in 2000. In a speech he gave after her death in Berlin, the author admits that "In many ways, Jamie Sullivan(the lead female character's name in the movie) was my younger sister". The plot was inspired by her life; Danielle met a man who wanted to marry her, even when he knew she was sick, even when he knew that she might not make it"

 
This is about another romantic love story that is really happening in real life
 Who knows,
A perfect stranger that you passed by today on the streets or in the shopping mall
Might turn out to be your soul mate
All you need to do is listen to your heart... 
This teeny tiny little thing inside your body
Behind those protective ribs
And between two powerful sentinel lungs
It is creating some magic on your brain when you see your crush or lover
It's different
Different

Go watch this movie,
Share it with your friends 
Enjoy your weekend!!!